When you love something you fight for it.When many people hear this statement they immediately think of the person they love, but when I hear it, I think of photography.
In April, I quit my full time job, a job that was allowing me to live comfortably, a job that helped pay the mortgage of my new house, the job that I hated. I didn't hate it because it was too challenging or because I wasn't treated right, I hated it because I was wasting my time. The office job I had was your typical Monday-Friday, 8:00-5:00, just the hours alone left me little time to schedule sessions. When I did schedule a session, it was all I thought about that week, I felt like a kid in a candy store, I was so excited! Even after the session, all I would think about during the work day was how quickly I could get home to edit the photos. My heart was telling me what I wanted, but my brain was pulling me in the other direction.
"Don't quit. You won't make it on your own. Make the smart move. You’re just not trying hard enough."
These thoughts were constantly going through my mind.
So, needless to say, this tug-of-war went on for quite some time, until I saw a light at the end of the tunnel. I was offered a full-time job with a wedding photography company and that was music to my ears. If I had to work an office job, doing it at a photography studio was going to give me the best of both worlds. So I (prematurely) quit my job with the hope that this new job would start in May. I was told by a lot of people not to quit until I new for sure when my knew job would start, but I couldn't wait any longer.
Little did I know this new full-time job was going to fall through and I would be left without the security of working for an employer who paid me every two weeks, without the security of having a job to wake up for every single day. Commence FREAK OUT mode!! I started up my business about 4 years ago but it was always a side business, I have always wanted to own my business but I honestly never thought it would happen. I always thought it was just one of those far fetched dreams that would stay just that, a dream. But after many tears and countless talks with my husband and my parents, I realized that the full-time photography job falling through was a blessing in disguise. I am going to do this, I am going to take my photography business full-time, this dream is going to become my reality. FREAK OUT out mode, take two!!
How am I going to do this? How do I get my name out there? How can my little business be enough to pay the bills? I ask myself these questions everyday, and I will continue to ask these questions when I reach my goal.
I am taking a huge risk by following my dream.
I wish I could say that following my dream wasn't a risk, but it is, because we are taught to believe that if we aren't making money we aren't successful, but I have come to find out that just isn't true. Do I want to make money with this business, absolutely, but I also want to make people happy and capture moments that they don't even realize are happening.
It has only been a few months since I decided my next adventure, but I know I am on the right path. I wasn't going to get the life I wanted by sitting at a desk all day and I am so ready to build the life I have been dreaming of. Life is short and I am not going to sit around and let it pass me by.
There are days when I start to second guess my decision, but then I stop and remember all of the reasons why this is meant to be, why I am a photographer; Here are just a few of those reasons:
Quote taken from: https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/quitting-job-never-give-up-culture-olivia-barrow?trk=eml-b2_content_ecosystem_digest-hero-14-null&midToken=AQE5SpVE1cLuEw&fromEmail=fromEmail&ut=0p0-9MUAOQzDk1