Last month it was my turn to be behind the camera and let me tell you, the experience was quite different then I imagined. Janet of Janet Miller Photography did an amazing job capturing me, the lighting was perfect and the photos were great, but when I looked at the photos I didn’t see me, I saw a stranger.
The last time I had professional pictures taken was two years ago at my wedding and those photos are amazing. But things have changed in the past two years and for some reason when I got these photos back, I didn’t get the same feeling I got when I looked at my wedding photos. I immediately saw ALL of my flaws and that’s all I could see.
It has taken me a while to share these photos and at first I didn’t want to let anyone see them. I didn’t even want to show my husband, the man who looks at me every single day and tells me I am beautiful even without my make up on. But after a while, as I kept looking at the photos I started to recognize myself and I was starting to love them. I am not a size zero and I am certainly not perfect, but this is me, I have an amazing family, the best husband in the entire world and a job that allows me to live the life I have ALWAYS wanted. So now when I look at the photos, that is the feeling I get and that is what I love about them.
Often times when I go to a photo session, I am meeting a family for the first time, but within minutes I feel like I have known them forever. I get to know them, they get to know me, and I truly love watching their kids grow and reach milestones in their lives. I want my clients to look at their photos and feel that same happiness that I feel when I look at mine, to see how beautiful they look, and to realize how lucky and blessed they are to be living their life.
I think in life we often take things for granted and don’t realize that our blessings may be someone else’s struggle. In the past few months I have experienced changes in all areas of my life and I have really come to appreciate everything that I have and even everything that I don’t have. I have learned a lot about myself and I have realized that I am so much stronger then I give myself credit for. I have seen just how amazing and supportive my family and my husband’s family can be and I am beyond grateful to have so many wonderful people in my life.
I am so thankful and appreciative of this path that I am on in life and I know that it can only get better from here.